Workwise, this has just been a frustrating day in a frustrating week in a frustrating month in a frustrating year.
Of course, that all loses some of its dramatic force when you recollect that we're still in January. Some other parts of my life are frustrating too, like my finances (savings still a little lower and Visa balance a little higher than I'd like - how I wish I'd quit flying sooner! - though they're still both in decent shape by most standards, I think) and my lack of decisions about competing and training this year, but all of those things are my own fault and are not nearly as annoying to me. The issues heterodyne, though: I will feel freer to take risks and make changes once my finances are slapped back into shape.
Am I just a privileged girl whining because she can't have cake and a pony too? Totally. There are more things right with my life than there are wrong with it.
On the way home from work after a crappy day, I like to play the "best thing possible" game: What's the best thing that could happen today? It has to be in the bounds of possibility; no fair dreaming about winning the lottery if I haven't bought a ticket. They can range from things that are barely possible (winning the lottery) to virtually certain (an evening with Rudder). Today's best possible things include the arrival of any of a few expected packages and knitting while rereading "Le Ton Beau de Marot". Come to think of it, I think Rudder has a meeting tonight, but I still get to snuggle with him before going to sleep, plus I can make one of my favorite dinners that he's not especially fond of (gambas al ajillas and dilled potatoes). And the one package I most confidently expect contains the fuzzy boots (fuzzy on the inside) I finally broke down and bought, so my feet will be happy. In addition, there could be beads, pretzels (I ordered some that claim to be the "world's best), a blazer, or even, remote possibility, a much delayed Chanukah present from the relative who tends to be vague about such things. Plenty of possibilities plus virtually assured Rudder-snuggles - lots to look forward to.
Except I started thinking about them too soon and now I'm anxious to go home. Oops. What are your best possible things today?
Posted by dichroic at January 25, 2006 03:15 PMI might get a footrub tonight. And I might manage to finish a story.
Posted by: Mer at January 25, 2006 03:51 PMmy bills will get paid! (seriously - i take perverse pleasure in paying my bills when i actually SIT DOWN and DO IT.)
plus a best possible thing is that i will see a new episode of project runway with my girl and her housemate, neither of whom one would expect to enjoy the show.
and i might get a little snuggling in with my littlest dog, who has been in nervous-nelly state since all the boxes came home and things started going into them.
Posted by: megan at January 25, 2006 04:19 PMA letter from abroad - a *real* letter, not just a card. Having a cozy evening together with Lars.
Posted by: Maria at January 26, 2006 12:02 AM